Well I am definitely in a country mood! More of a reflective, emo kind of mood than a "woe-is-me" mood. I'm listening to "Cry" by Faith Hill, although I'm not crying, it's an amazing song. I love Faith Hill, I do. and I just watched two awesome performances on the Academy of Country Music Awards-- Sugarland & Keith Urban. Caught the tail end of Carrie Underwood (who is too gorgeous and perfect for words) singing with Steven Tyler and it was also quality.
I just finished my dinner, a little late I know, but I'm trying to convince myself that it really isn't ever TOO LATE for anything. I have a lot of little goals floating around which I hope to accomplish in the (near) future.
1. run a nice 5k and say "that was easy"
2. eat foods that are good for my body
3. to not take medicine anymore
4. to not have to ask for kisses
5. to make little art-ful decorative quote plaques and sell them... or give them away
6. to update my blog more often
That's the bucket list of the moment. Those are the things jumping out at me, I'm 100% positive there are more, but the key is to be realistic. Those things are all achievable.
Also, question of the day is why menfolk just never seem to "get it"... whatever "it" is. They say you need to tell men exactly what you want. So I do. and still don't get it. Why is it that hard? I want _____ for my birthday. Okay, so I'll get you a bunch of other things instead. and I should be flattered for someone thinking I'm smaller than I am, but I've got the puffies this week. My skinny jeans are totally not fitting and it's killing me. I'm feeling very "medium" all around... medium-sized and mediocre.
I want to achieve greatness. Maybe I do need to do lots of small things instead of moving mountains. I am running out of time to leave my mark on Bobcatville.
Ramble, ramble, ramble. Listen to my song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcGntdbDB5Q
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
i'm in the pursuit of happiness and iiii knowwww
The Pursuit of Happiness: 15 Lessons to Keep in Mind
1. The only person that can ever truly make you happy is yourself. Stop depending on everyone else.
2. People lie, stuff happens. Don’t take it too personally.
3. Want people to think you’re amazing? Start believing you are, and then they will too.
4. Smiling is the ultimate anti-depressant. Smile and laugh out loud, it doesn’t look stupid, I promise.
5. The world is never just black and white, right or wrong, one way or another. Try and see things from as many points of view as possible.
6. "Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final"
— Rainer Maria Rilke
7. Have empathy.
8. Gossip, problems of the past, events you cannot control, negative thoughts and negative people; time spent on these is time poorly wasted.
9. When you're jealous or find yourself filled with hate for someone/something, stop. The only person its hurting is you.
10. Although the newest, most expensive material things may make you feel as if you’re a better person, they won’t hold you at night or listen to you when you need it. Make sure your priorities make sense.
11. Step outside your comfort zone- it’s when you’ll really feel alive.
12. Don’t be afraid to be yourself, the people who really matter, don’t mind
13. Let your emotions out sometimes, humans have them for a reason.
14. Celebrate the things you have. Think only positively of the things you don’t (but would like to have) and they too will come.
15. Love unconditionally ♥.
1. The only person that can ever truly make you happy is yourself. Stop depending on everyone else.
2. People lie, stuff happens. Don’t take it too personally.
3. Want people to think you’re amazing? Start believing you are, and then they will too.
4. Smiling is the ultimate anti-depressant. Smile and laugh out loud, it doesn’t look stupid, I promise.
5. The world is never just black and white, right or wrong, one way or another. Try and see things from as many points of view as possible.
6. "Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final"
— Rainer Maria Rilke
7. Have empathy.
8. Gossip, problems of the past, events you cannot control, negative thoughts and negative people; time spent on these is time poorly wasted.
9. When you're jealous or find yourself filled with hate for someone/something, stop. The only person its hurting is you.
10. Although the newest, most expensive material things may make you feel as if you’re a better person, they won’t hold you at night or listen to you when you need it. Make sure your priorities make sense.
11. Step outside your comfort zone- it’s when you’ll really feel alive.
12. Don’t be afraid to be yourself, the people who really matter, don’t mind
13. Let your emotions out sometimes, humans have them for a reason.
14. Celebrate the things you have. Think only positively of the things you don’t (but would like to have) and they too will come.
15. Love unconditionally ♥.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
say ahh it's ya birthday!
Happy 22nd to me! Unfortunately, it's a day full of thoughts... but then again, this is my life, so nothing is new!
Today I feel like I just can't do anything right. Everything I feel like I've accomplished seems to not be good enough-- my job, my senior week committee. It's simple little things, but altogether, all at once, I really just feel like it's a big slap. I try so hard but nobody ever notices. I know it's important to challenge myself, but how about a "good job" first, then go ahead and critique my performance. Blah. Also, I know I hold my own employees to high standards, but there's a difference between not even doing the basics of your job (like some of them) and going above/beyond, but still not doing THAT right. Something's askew here. Someone suggested to me I'm being abused/taken advantage of because people realize I won't be around next year and they will have to cultivate new relationships-- not an easy task. But still, I just want some legit recognition, not all these lame, FAKE happy birthday wishes when nobody actually cares.
Okay, I'm dramatic, whatever.
In other news, my sweetheart roommates made me a whole tray of cupcakes that neither of them want to eat because they don't even like them! So that means I get to eat them all! I did have one last night and another for breakfast today after the gym...and I'm okay with that! I'm having FroYo world for dinner, and some margaritas after! YAY for birthdays, and well, celebrating life.
I'm going to treat myself to a birthday shopping spree this afternoon because my 5pm class is cancelled! My paper for that class isn't exactly done yet... but I have til Thursday and I only have 2 pages to go! So I'll deal with that later. I am the queen of time management I suppose.
Okay. Go shawty.
BYE!
Today I feel like I just can't do anything right. Everything I feel like I've accomplished seems to not be good enough-- my job, my senior week committee. It's simple little things, but altogether, all at once, I really just feel like it's a big slap. I try so hard but nobody ever notices. I know it's important to challenge myself, but how about a "good job" first, then go ahead and critique my performance. Blah. Also, I know I hold my own employees to high standards, but there's a difference between not even doing the basics of your job (like some of them) and going above/beyond, but still not doing THAT right. Something's askew here. Someone suggested to me I'm being abused/taken advantage of because people realize I won't be around next year and they will have to cultivate new relationships-- not an easy task. But still, I just want some legit recognition, not all these lame, FAKE happy birthday wishes when nobody actually cares.
Okay, I'm dramatic, whatever.
In other news, my sweetheart roommates made me a whole tray of cupcakes that neither of them want to eat because they don't even like them! So that means I get to eat them all! I did have one last night and another for breakfast today after the gym...and I'm okay with that! I'm having FroYo world for dinner, and some margaritas after! YAY for birthdays, and well, celebrating life.
I'm going to treat myself to a birthday shopping spree this afternoon because my 5pm class is cancelled! My paper for that class isn't exactly done yet... but I have til Thursday and I only have 2 pages to go! So I'll deal with that later. I am the queen of time management I suppose.
Okay. Go shawty.
BYE!
Monday, March 28, 2011
responsibility...am i the only one who gets it?
I am fed up. I don't know whether people don't understand their roles within the workplace and within committees, or do they CHOOSE (purposely) to stray from their assignments. I am about to chop heads over here because people a) don't show up for work or b) don't do their job while at work. First of all, it's not rocket science to figure out that if you're not coming, not only do you need to find coverage, but you need to JUST TELL ME YOU'RE NOT COMING. I've been told to just fire you all. But no, I'm too kindhearted to do that. Actually, no, I'm lazy and realize how impossible it would be to properly remake the schedule if I had to scrap 3 people... that would be filling 27 hours a week and I can't do them all myself. I'm getting accustomed to having a social life (finally, senior year I learn how to have fun...)
And also. Don't join a committee if you can't do the work for it. Not that hard to put things in alphabetical order. SW, ya killin me. Unorganized. and I guess the worst part is, I can somehow blame it on myself.
I know this is a lot of ME ME ME, but 1) it's MY blog and 2) ... well there is no two.
Maybe I should use my soc minor and figure out how to blame society for all of this crappola... but alas, maybe psych would be more effective here. Regardless, how about everyone just does their reponsibilities?!
The worst part is, some people are doing just fine, but I always expect more-- the above and beyond, the WOW factor. I expect so much of myself that I expect it from others.
Okay more later, time for work!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
little things, little things they always hang around
So I have a very specific blog post today, something that's really been on my mind.
A childhood friend of mine has started blogging about doing random acts of kindness and trying to catch people off guard by their niceness. This made me think about myself, and whether I'm doing enough of those myself. So this is her list of things to try:
1.Give directions to someone who looks lost
2.Return a stray shopping cart to it’s proper place
3.Talk to a homeless person
4.Leave a generous tip to a waiter accompanied by a friendly note
5.Wash a friend’s car
6.Pay someone’s toll
7.Send flowers to an unsuspecting friend/relative
8.Give out free popsicles on a hot day
9.Say something nice to everyone you meet today
10.Share inspirational quotes
11.Leave a kind note on a stranger’s car
12.Smile and say “hello” to people you don’t know
13.Tell a manager about the pleasant service you received from a sales clerk14.Put change in a parking meter that is running low
15.Let someone cut you at the grocery store
16.Give another driver your parking spot
17.Leave a dollar bill on the ground for someone else to find
18.Leave change in a vending/gumball machine
19.Bake cupcakes for a friend for no reason at all
20.Offer sincere advice to a friend in need
and I've bolded the ones I've done. She's done one.
Maybe she hasn't updated it, which is totally possible, but my first thought was "Was I a better person? Nicer?" Or is she for doing them on purpose? But then again, I do it subconsciously in a way... After some back and forth with this, I've come to a conclusion.
We are both good people for trying to spread cheer in the world. We've just come to this point (nearly the same point) at different times in our lives. Everyone has realizations, but they are triggered by different things. And whatever motivates you? That's awesome. Just try to make the world a better place.
Also, it's so strange to think about how as we grow and mature, we can do so separately, yet somehow get closer at the same time. She lists herself as a to-do list and post-it note fantatic...and so am I. I just wonder if we will ever come back together and realize that we're even more similar now than when we were 10.
A childhood friend of mine has started blogging about doing random acts of kindness and trying to catch people off guard by their niceness. This made me think about myself, and whether I'm doing enough of those myself. So this is her list of things to try:
1.Give directions to someone who looks lost
2.Return a stray shopping cart to it’s proper place
3.Talk to a homeless person
4.Leave a generous tip to a waiter accompanied by a friendly note
5.Wash a friend’s car
6.Pay someone’s toll
7.Send flowers to an unsuspecting friend/relative
8.Give out free popsicles on a hot day
9.Say something nice to everyone you meet today
10.Share inspirational quotes
11.Leave a kind note on a stranger’s car
12.Smile and say “hello” to people you don’t know
13.Tell a manager about the pleasant service you received from a sales clerk14.Put change in a parking meter that is running low
15.Let someone cut you at the grocery store
16.Give another driver your parking spot
17.Leave a dollar bill on the ground for someone else to find
18.Leave change in a vending/gumball machine
19.Bake cupcakes for a friend for no reason at all
20.Offer sincere advice to a friend in need
and I've bolded the ones I've done. She's done one.
Maybe she hasn't updated it, which is totally possible, but my first thought was "Was I a better person? Nicer?" Or is she for doing them on purpose? But then again, I do it subconsciously in a way... After some back and forth with this, I've come to a conclusion.
We are both good people for trying to spread cheer in the world. We've just come to this point (nearly the same point) at different times in our lives. Everyone has realizations, but they are triggered by different things. And whatever motivates you? That's awesome. Just try to make the world a better place.
Also, it's so strange to think about how as we grow and mature, we can do so separately, yet somehow get closer at the same time. She lists herself as a to-do list and post-it note fantatic...and so am I. I just wonder if we will ever come back together and realize that we're even more similar now than when we were 10.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
buddy the cake boss
I need to blog way more than I do. I have so many things I could write about, but life gets in the way. I'm going to now make a more conscious effort to get it all out here. Let's see how it goes...
Well I am waiting for my McGraths to get here (oh yes, I get both brothers tonight!) as part of a spur-of-the-moment trip to visit me atop the hill! Hopefully I won't disappoint them with our activities of the evening... they may not realize how much of a snugglebug I am and how I'm perfectly content watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days on Bravo in my bed! Oh well, if I can get some choco chip pancakes at Acrop later, I will be a happy woman for sure.
Perhaps one of the reasons I'm laying down and I didn't workout today is because my shins and hip flexors are KILLING me. I walk/jog/ran up York Hill yesterday... felt great even though the wind was so strong and blowing freezing air right into my lungs... it was still nice. I really do love outdoors. I definitely have SAD... I think that's what it's called, when the weather makes you sad? I had a pretty decent week in terms of eating and working out, yet those trouble spots are still dimply :( I know, gross details, but it's my blog so I can say what I want to!
OH YEAAAYYY the boys just got off the highway! Fantastic! I must go prepare for their arrival... by getting out of my jammies!
xo
Well I am waiting for my McGraths to get here (oh yes, I get both brothers tonight!) as part of a spur-of-the-moment trip to visit me atop the hill! Hopefully I won't disappoint them with our activities of the evening... they may not realize how much of a snugglebug I am and how I'm perfectly content watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days on Bravo in my bed! Oh well, if I can get some choco chip pancakes at Acrop later, I will be a happy woman for sure.
Perhaps one of the reasons I'm laying down and I didn't workout today is because my shins and hip flexors are KILLING me. I walk/jog/ran up York Hill yesterday... felt great even though the wind was so strong and blowing freezing air right into my lungs... it was still nice. I really do love outdoors. I definitely have SAD... I think that's what it's called, when the weather makes you sad? I had a pretty decent week in terms of eating and working out, yet those trouble spots are still dimply :( I know, gross details, but it's my blog so I can say what I want to!
OH YEAAAYYY the boys just got off the highway! Fantastic! I must go prepare for their arrival... by getting out of my jammies!
xo
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