stay tonight

i couldn't sleep at all last night. strange noises outside and sharp coils in my bed...not conducive to a good slumber. let's hope tonight goes better. although, i feel deathly already with just one meal from the ratt down, 29052905 to go :(

all my stuff is moved in, and the pictures are almost all up on the walls. pink is a prevalent theme in this room...and katie and i have twin ikea lamps on our uni-desk... meaning that our 2 desks are next to each other so there's no doubt we will become very close!

my new tv is beautiful, as is that 70s show.

i'm enjoying the free time being a social butterfly and all, but once monday comes, that ceases. or does it? I forget how to do schoolwork.

who wants to come visit? kidding, i know, it's early for that, but i'm supposed to be having fun which means being social... and not getting in trouble, so i'm trying to still figure out what fun is for me. not obligatory "fun" events, but really, doing what i want, when i want, with who i want. cheers to the beginning of this quest! (or rather, the continuation).

oh good, sirens outside. that will only be topped by the 5am garbage truck. cant wait!

tomorrow is supposed to POUR but i still want to run in the rain (hopefully accompanied!) and then I'M SEEING BLINK182 :) and I've been waiting for this day all summer... if not longer. I'm mad that Rach is going for free as a VIP because of the sweet internship I let her borrow from me. Some day it will be mine, but for now, I'm glad I could loan it to her.

Okay, time for bed...and by that, I mean reading Women's Health in my bed...after I go use the awkward sinks in the bathroom.

tell me what it's like... to be alone.

(see title.)

is it thursday yet?

Thursday, thursday, back to school! I spent today getting some things organizing and buying some last minute things so I can be all packed up and ready to roll. Wednesday is my parents' 25th anniversary and the company picnic so we'll be busy that whole day. Tomorrow, we're having my favorite dinner at Gram's house :D

I'm writing from the family computer because mine has a trojan virus... whatever that means. So my solution to that problem is just to turn it off. Does that work? I tried to fix it but made it worse, if that's even possible. So I'm sitting in the kitchen, which is quite a change from blogging at my ISO desk or in my bed. I will miss watching friends on the laptop for 2 days! Although, I don't really understand the deal with a virus. Should I be not using my computer? Or can I watch friends? I just need some laughs before I fall asleep!

So I've been thinking lately as everyone moves to school for some sort of training or another... that I should be there too. & that led me to wonder if anyone misses me there. I mean, does anyone else feel like I should be there? Or is it just me? I'm sure some people could care less, and all of these nice people are commenting saying they like me on facebook, but really, I wasn't looking for sympathy. I honestly just wonder if anyone at QU misses me like I miss them.

I thank Betsy for reminding me that we still have PLENTY to chat about!

Tomorrow holds more packing! Gotta throw those fall clothes in a bag. Although seeing a friend I havent seen all summer reminds me that I will never have as many clothes.

::Sigh::

I need to learn to be grateful, but it's hard in this world. At least for now, I have to flush all the negative thoughts out and replace them with positive ones.

i know who i want to take me home

it's closing time, essentially. last day of the internship baby. can't believe summer has flown by already. it always seems so long at the begininning but then here i am with a week left til school.. thank god :) eye heart QU.

I feel hungover today... because I ate a donut. That's a surefire way to feel like I've been hit by a MACK truck. Robin's fault for bringing them in. But come on, Boston Creme? mmm. Hopefully the massive amounts of water I consume will flush out all that bad feeling.

I have to clean off my desk this afternoon. I always get so nostalgic when something ends. Hopefully tonight doesn't result in tears. I guess it depends if it goes out. I love my work friends but I get so tired so quickly. I want to see a movie or something tonight... but it's okay, wandering the streets of Amherst will work too!

I have my performance review in half hour, and then a luncheon...indoor BBQ? what? really? oh well. Shoot, that means more cookies. I really think my digestive system is just going to stop working. AH.

I'll have to take some more pics for the intern scrap book. Look out for that really soon.

As an intern,
xoxo
gossip girl
HA

vamoose

So here I am. Last Tuesday of the internship. I can officially say I have finished ALL MY WORK (and then some!) My boss is out today..and tomorrow.. so I can't even tell him I'm done! But that's fine, I'll just find a mirror and go practice my "presentation." & by presentation, I mean dialogue around the table. I love how the internship coordinator said that we do it this way so we don't scare the engineers. let's just laugh about that for a sec. Everyone should be able to speak to a group. Sorry, but that's how I see it. Maybe I should hold my tongue though, because I seem to be a flop when it comes to speaking in front of a group without a PPT or without standing up in front of them. Eh, maybe I'll throw a dress on anyways and get my hair did. Painted my toes already so there's a little confidence boost, right? Need to back at QU now. Although, when I get there, I'll realize how little clothing I actually have that I like because I'm used to being dressed up everyday. Time for a shopping trip then, that will solve everything :) It always does.

Sunday I went to the beach with mom. I think I dragged her there but it was a blast and I love hanging out with my mom...and I love the beach... so it was a win-win situation. &&& Sarah and Michelle came!!!!!! I love having friends that will come meet me :) I'm golden brown and I just feel so much more confident when I'm glowing. Okay, so I may not be as dark as other people I know, but I think I'm doing okay. I want to try to go one more time to the beach before I go back to QU. Hopefully next Thursday or something. I just crave Sunshine. I know I would LOVE the feeling in the Winter when I get all grumpy, but I don't want to start tanning because I won't stop, and I really am in no rush to get melanoma, so I'll hold off on that.

Katie's moved into our room & I'm jealous. I wish I was there with her. I just need to get back and face the music. Really, it's time. I keep saying how I'll be fine once I'm back in the swing, but I just can't know until I actually do it. I'm over the issues we had at the end of last semester, and honestly, I can do without nuns and nasties but I just need to find my place again so I can get back on track... whatever that track may be. The Spring holds plenty of opportunity, but I just need to learn how to relax and figure out what's "FUN" for me in the fall. I have big plans.. to do nothing! :) (but knowing me, I'll do SOMETHING but I don't know what that will be yet. Perhaps some bagel-brunch planning?)

I'm ready to start packing. Too bad I can't do that at work... that would be so convenient. Other people who took summer classes use their downtime for writing papers and such but I don't have anything like that to work on. I'll just check out some CNN.com and see what's going on in the world. I do love the news, but I prefer hearing it on the radio or tv. My eyes get tired of reading!

Oh, PS. 3EB is supposedly coming to QU. I'm totally excited, but way to go SPB keeping that under wraps. You know what though, it's okay. People want to know, so give the people what they want! At least people are overjoyed about this one. & I prefer the open lines of communication... mainly mass communication, since I got kicked out of the inner loop. I really just hope that my old comrades don't forget about little old me.

peace & love

blogging from my igloo

So it's 22 degrees in the office. I am wearing a dress, and my hair is still wet. I am holding a cup of hot water for warmth.

and to think that this company is always encouraging people to cut costs and use electricity.

Most important news of the day...
I went running at 5:30 this morning. in the dark. in the rain.
but the most important part...

I RAN THE WHOLE WAY!!!!

That's leaving a smile on my face for the entire day.. and hopefully through the weekend.

It's Gram's birthday. She's hilarious. Can't wait to see what kind of outfit she pulls together for tonight.

:)

skip around the pole

Today's Alicia's Birthday... and if we worked at camp, we'd skip around the pole. Made her brownies & Davy got ice cream for our quick little office party... love having a snack at 2:30 :)

My phone is going 3 days on one charge. Let's celebrate! Yeah, I really do love my new phone. That's one good decision I've made lately! & my haircut. Another good one. I got compliments on that, so that made me all warm and fuzzy inside.

I went to Shelton this weekend and saw some of my favorite people I haven't seen in awhile. Fantastic evening. Anytime there's a fire, I'm a happy lady... as long as someone else lights it. I just like to sit by it. and make s'mores. YUM. Okay, even though I didn't have smores this weekend, I really did enjoy my Saturday night. and my Sunday at IKEA & Kumo. & I apparently love sentence fragments. I've never had a proper writing style because I write pages at a time without a new paragraph "return." I'll need to change that because I'm taking some legitimate English course this semester.

Speaking of my classes, I got into the ones I wanted, minutes before WebAdvisor shut down for the day!

I'm taking:

Race & Ethnicity
Human Organism Biology
PR Research
Latin American Politics
Literature of the South

Should be a good variety. Maybe I should have minored in Soc. instead of MG because I've taken 3 or 4 Soc. classes and 1 from MG. Eh. Plenty of time, plenty of time. AND, oh YES, I got ALL my books for less than $300. and I had to get a TON of books. I got one for $1.01! But the shipping cost more than the book. Too funny. I should go into the book biz, make mad billz.

Looks like a nice weekend. I need to go to the beach. NEED to. Saturday I think I'm going to 6 Flags with the fam which is good because I haven't been all season and I DO love Batman :)

okay wow I left this up and didn't post it all day...

throw it in the bag

TGIF.

we are entirely smooth. we admit to the truth, we are the best at what we do.

Brand New is coming to WALLINGFORD!

Tickets aren't on sale yet, but I gotta get 'em. The only issue is that the last time I saw them (with Dashboard in Lowell), I was disappointed. I'm thinking though, that because I anticipated seeing them as the greatest experience of my life, I was setting myself up to be disappointed. Every review I read of their shows is positive though, with things like "BEST LIVE SHOW EVER." So for that reason, I'll give them another try. And the fact that Molly wants to go. AND the fact that I LOVE CONCERTS. I keep checking the Toad's Web site to see who's coming, but nobody I want to see yet.

Well, happy Wednesday at work. Today's big plans include sending my first fax from here, continuing my photo shoot for my "Things We Love About Being an Intern" photo album, making some quality PPT graphics, transcribing a script called "Understanding Your Bill"... and sharing my lovely office with Alicia & Davy. Just a typical Wednesday.

So I was instructed to make a list of all the things I like about myself. I came up with about 7 TOTAL... and of course left it at home so I have to write up a new one. I was told to make it a journal, but knowing me, my response was to make it a LIST because that's how I roll. My mom and sister though agreed they could probably only think of a couple things too. So now I wonder, I bet the whole world would have as hard of time as me... except for a few individuals (Confidence is a must, cockiness is a plus) and yes I've met my fair share of these people. Well, I used to act like one. Whoever thought "Kazin is Amazin" would catch on... it did, but only externally. I did learn, however, that I'm a good faker at being "Pretty much a big deal." Oh, Sophomore Year.

It's okay, I've got BiG PlAnS for this year. BIG PLANS. Just wait and see. (Partially because I'm still waiting to see what these plans are myself... all I know is that I WILL do something positive for myself and for others.) YES.

For now, I'm off to go figure out the fax machine. We'll see how today goes, maybe I'll write some more later.

Peace out.

working has made headphones so much less appealing

Happy Monday.
Really, I'm relatively happy today... until it was time for more transcribing! Oh, being an intern.

My super-large headphones feel like they're suffocating me today. However, I was just informed that after today, there are only 14 days left in this program! Then, one week off, and back to Quinnipiac! :D (giant smile goes there.) I'm ready. For awhile, I wasn't sure, but now, I am SO ready.

I need to make that last week off Amazing though. Sun needs to happen. Beach would be good. Perhaps some camping, because Alicia goes all the time and I think she's the most relaxed person in the world. I could use some of those techniques to prepare for this fall. Let's hope WebAdvisor cooperates and I get into those last minute classes I need.

Really, I could go for Wentworth's Almond Joy Ice Cream with Chocolate Sprinkles. Bruegger's sandwich... even though I'm not supposed to eat the bread... a hike to the top of the Giant, a concert at Toad's, living in the same proximity as my friends, FREE TIME ON THE WEEKENDS, my new TV, living with Katie... and the list goes on.

Hamden, let's go.

everyone's gone to the movies now we're alone again

So I went to see HP in IMAX last night all the way in Manchester. Bought my $17 tickets ahead of time online for me and two friends. After some delicious Pepe's (okay not the REAL real thing, but still... the real thing) we find our seats and OF COURSE...the IMAX projector was broken. AWESOME. So since I've been working hard to go with the flow and not be so uptight/crazily scheduled, I wasn't even that upset. We saw regular HP for no additional charge & got a free ticket to use some other time. So eh, not a total loss.. but still, went ALL THE WAY TO MANCHESTER when the mall is 7 minutes from home. Oh well. HP was okay, it's turning into a scary series, rather than playful, mystical, "harry potter" that the first movie had.. but okay, I know they were 11 then. In the movie, the characters still look like they're 12 except Ron.

And now for all the thoughts buzzing in my head:

My giant bug bites on the back of my neck don't itch, they HURT.

Molly just put a tattoo on my hand and it looks like a blue smudge.

Automatically woke up at 5:45 this morning for work... but it's Saturday.

Need a new friendship bracelet or something similar.

Love my new bangs but wish my hair was always shiny and straight.

Hopefully going canoe-ing today at the lake for my little cousin's birthday.

Want to shop shop shop but really shouldnt. Have an Old Navy coupon that needs spending.

I'm over this gluten-free thing... except I know I'm gonna start gaining weight again.

Working out yesterday made me feel sick & I barely did a thing.

My dad's going crazy this morning. Shawty fire burning on the dancefloor is all I have to say.

Love Leighton Meester. Really. Want her headbands & to be a rockstar.

Friends makes me laugh out loud. I know that's in my "interests" but it never fails.

I have a new favorite inspirational quote that I'm turning into an art project..but I just need the time!

I hope Alyssa comes to visit tomorrow. No idea what to do with her though.

My tweezers fell in the toilet.

LOVE my new Frugal Fannies flip flops... perfect for my feet... thank god because they were $36.

Ready to move back to Quinnipiac.

I'm out, DEUCES.