am I living it right?
well I just typed this blog and it got deleted. so I'm feeling a little defeated. My resources are depleted. (yep, I'm a rappah now--SAMMY ADAMS)
I'm in the mood to snuggle but alas, I have to get dressed up-- last night of senior week interviews. We shall pick afterwards. VERY excited but so tough because we had SO MANY qualified people interview with us. Everyone will find their purpose though, back to EXCITED! 2011 baby!
Half the things I just wrote, I won't re-write because I just needed to get them out and even though nobody read them, it still feels nice to type them.
Next on the agenda, the job search paralyzation has hit-- I'm terrified. I feel like I'm qualified to do a job but don't know where or who would hire me. BLAH. Made me cry just thinking about it last night. Poor Johnny has to listen to my sobbing over no reason (and let's face it, I'm not moving to California so I can chill the eff out!)
I want chocolate :(
Already frustrated with my partner.
Although-- today-- didn't bite off the head of a particular friend who is making me want to bang my head on the wall. GREAT!
I feel like I have no homework, but I'm sooo not in the mood for art lately. OR picking courses for my last semester of senior year. I just want to curl up into a ball. Good thing grown-ups can snuggle too. and I'm really fortunate to have someone who makes me feel fantastic doing just that.
He knows the right things (most of the time) and that's an amazing feeling. I hope I'm not pushing it too hard. But my feet were rubbed, I get hugged, I don't know, I just crave that contact, so ya gotta give it to me!
I sound like a nut case. I miss people. The good people in the world.
Mama's bday is Sunday. yikes! so is an old friend's but we haven't talked in too long-- but I hope he knows he changed my life.
Now I'm spacing out.
Had a great day with my kitchen boys Gus & Marc making cuppycakes for Doyle's 21st. We're so old. but really, the people here take care of me and it's nice to know I can count on people, while still having fun. I just gotta remember that we have a professional relationship and I prob shouldn't freak out and turn on the waterworks at any time.
Why, Georgia, Why.
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