little miss sunshine

so i have to say that all in all, i'm doing pretty well.

it's been over a month since I last blogged, meaning that I've been busy-- NOT that I've had nothing to say, because honestly, I ALWAYS have something to say! Staying busy is good for my brain, body, etc. because otherwise my mind goes stir-crazy, as does my body, but between my full-time job/internship, working out to stay sane, family bonding (because i owe them my life), and attempting to be social, I really am feeling the summer slip away, and wish I had some more free time to bask in the sun... this is it, and i've been realizing it. My last summer before the next 40 years of my life. I am an adult, and I know I need to act like one, but it's just so tempting to be silly. I don't think I'll ever lose that, but I need some serious training to be able to sit still 40 hours a week for 40 years... on little sleep. I also need to learn to accept days without exercise, or rather, find a way to sneak it in, even on the busiest days. It's like the quote from legally blonde-- happy people just don't shoot their husbands. Endorphins push me every day and I need to exercise to feel like my best self. So once again, the key is balance. Everyone struggles with balance, but I'm just so determined to find it for myself and my peace of mind.

It's hard to move on past a chapter of your life but I think I've been doing okay. I do need lots of affection though, and it's funny to see how different I feel when I'm surrounded by kisses and hugs. I used to resist contact, but now I crave it. I need it. So I must find it... tastefully of course.

This weekend aims to be a blast. I have a concert Friday night and a giant house party Sunday, so I'm hoping that mother nature cooperates, along with my liver (kidding, kidding...) so that this is one of the most memorable weekends to date. Must. take. pictures. Good thing Josh is an amazing photographer. He makes animals, and Jenny look so so so amazing, I'm wondering if he can capture me that way too. I'd frame it :)

It's interesting the way I crave routine, yet manage to get sick of them too. I'm just consistenly inconsistent is basically the answer there (remember Hot Hot Heat!) For example, I love the gym. I love body pump. But I just want to hike, or bike, or ANYTHING different for a day. But I never do. I just cling to the norm's.

I'll just have to write more often, although I doubt anyone reads!